I stood the doorway of the sanctuary as people filed past,
greeting me and shaking hands after the service. Alfred, a tall, man with wire
rim glasses looked down at me and filled my hand with his own. In his
retirement he served as the custodian of the church. I knew him to be a man who
spoke frankly and to the point.
“It’s about time someone figured it out,” was all he said with
a smile before moving on to the let the next person greet me.
He was referring to my sermon when I reflected on the
relationship between a pastor and the congregation. After six years of ordained
ministry I had become frustrated with how difficult it was to motivate a
congregation to participate in faith-based educational or service oriented programs.
When the Senior Pastor took a new call I was left to work with the congregation
and began to notice some interesting behaviors.
According to a Fuller Insitute / Barna Research / Pastoral
Care Inc. study (cited
here) the profession of "Pastor" is near the bottom of a survey
of the most-respected professions, just above "car salesman".
First, let me say that I am not offended. I’ve long thought
that being a pastor requires a certain amount of salesmanship. Since our
culture is filled with competing advertisements persuading us that a product or
lifestyle can “change your life” or “change the world,” it’s only natural that
people see one of the chief jobs of the clergy is to convince and motivate
people to participate in a certain belief system that promises to do the same. Many of the techniques used in selling cars (or
any goods or services) are assumed to translate well into the arena of faith.
Some of the hardest
things in life to see are the incongruities that we have been taught to
overlook. Life is filled with actions, symbols and meanings that contradict the
things we claim to believe. Becoming aware of these contradictions and
resolving them can be both heart breaking and liberating.
The seminary is an accredited institution of higher learning.
Pastors graduate with a Masters of Divinity degree but the seminary can also
grant other Masters degrees as well as Doctorates. So in the spring of every
year, those who have fulfilled all the necessary requirements get to
participate in commencement exercises.
My graduation from
seminary took place at Central Lutheran Church in downtown Minneapolis. Central
is a huge, cathedral-like building with gothic architecture, ornate wooden
carvings and magnificent acoustics. It’s a church building that was meant to
inspire the worshiper and magnify the wonder of God. The seminary used the
church for graduation ceremonies because it was one of the few churches in the
area that could hold all the graduates, faculty and guests.
Because I played tuba in a brass ensemble that performed at
graduation, I had been to the commencement ceremonies in the past. One of the
traditions of the ensemble was to let the graduating seniors choose a song from
the group’s repertoire that would be played as part of the prelude. As a tuba
player I love John Philips Sousa marches and, since there were a couple in the
collection of songs that we played, I requested “Liberty Bell March.”
When we got together to rehearse for graduation I was not
surprised to be informed that my request had been turned down. I was, however,
annoyed by the short, but stern rebuke from the campus pastor who sat next to
me in the group and played baritone.
You see, Liberty Bell March is the theme song from Monty
Python’s Flying Circus. Most people don’t know it by name but when you hear it
you immediately think of the irreverent comedy show. Someone on the worship
planning team caught it and didn’t see the humor. Not only did my request get
rejected but as a punishment I wasn’t allowed to make another request. I
remember something being said about the seriousness of the occasion, apparent disrespect
to my classmates and the whole seminary community, and disappointment that I
would try such a prank.
I thought about playing dumb at that point but I didn’t really
care. It would have been so amazing and
more than fitting, in my mind, to hear the strains of the Liberty Bell March
echo through that august sanctuary right before my graduating class processed
in. The only thing that would have made it even remotely better would have been
to shout “And now for something completely different” immediately before we
launched into the song.
To me this was more than a prank. It was a statement about
everything I had been through in seminary. It was about the hoops and hurdles.
It was about the seriousness with which the church and its leaders tend take
themselves. It was a statement about the silliness of the whole commencement
exercise compared to what we were being asked to do as pastors. It was about
the incongruity of graduating in a building that was the showpiece of 19th
century, urban church architecture and the reality of being sent to serve in
rural churches with cracked walls, crumbling foundations and mildew issues. It
was about the sheer audacity to put on this show of pomp and circumstance highlighting
our mastery of a theological education without the slightest hint of irony in
claiming that we were going out to be servants.
There are other places where the symbols of master and servant
clash in the church . The stoles that pastors wear over their robes represent
the yoke of Christ and are a symbol of a servant. Clerical collars that peek
out from under the same robes are modernized versions of the collars professors
wore in centuries past to symbolize their authority and learning. We are taught that these are symbols of the
“office” of ministry so we overlook the way they contradict each other. But you
can’t be both master and servant at the same time.
I
am frustrated by the incongruities and the lack of clear vision within
religious systems. And yet such uncertainty seems to hint at much greater
liberty for individuals and communities than most of us expect. Opening our
eyes to the contradictions between our personal (and corporate) actions and beliefs,
being able to laugh about them in a forgiving way, and making adjustments to
resolve them is the way towards peace.